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4/15/2019 2 Comments Dear Critical Voice Dear critical voice, I know I don’t say it enough, so I wanted to publicly thank you today. I have misunderstood and judged you most of my life. I thought you were out to get me and always assumed that your intentions were evil. I experienced hurt and felt like I had to hustle to make you happy, but I was never perfect enough. I realize now that is how you are made. You will never stop criticizing and pointing out concerns because that is who you are. You are a gift, and you have always been trying to help me, in your own way. I understand now that you only wanted to keep me safe, help me to fit in and be able to survive, and produce my best work. I really do appreciate that. I also realize that you and I are not the same. You see, for a long time, I mistakenly thought your voice was the same as my own. Thanks to meditation, I have been able to see we are different and have concluded that there is nothing wrong with you, and there is nothing wrong with me. Knowing this, I promise to no longer try to shut you out and down, and I also promise to give more voice to all the other sources of wisdom and gifts I have been given. I was never meant to listen to you alone. Your purpose is to be a part of the whole. Thanks for all your help and please forgive me for all the ways I have judged you. It took learning to be compassionate with myself to discover I could also see you with compassionate eyes. I won’t ask so much of you anymore, and I am glad you are a part of the family. Love, Lee Ann
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6/11/2019 10:25:53 am
We are all just trying to be writer-editors at some point. The truth is we really shouldn't be trying to edit out anything during the creation process. If we do this all the time, no happy realizations will ever find itself come out from the paper. Sometimes we need to learn to be still and just try to shut the critical voice inside our head which keeps telling us that we are not worthy or that we are better off gone. While we all know that there maybe instances where this maybe or we have reason to believe that it's true, we still shouldn't listen to it. 7/12/2019 07:57:22 pm
I should be taking a nap now but just like the previous nights for the last ten years in my life, I am bothered by running thoughts that never seem to leave. I worry about more things my ordinary mind can handle. Weight gain is the least of my problems. I worry a lot about how I am raising my kid and why I still feel alone even if I am surrounded by friends and family. It seems every move I make, I end up telling myself I am not good enough. Leave a Reply. |
AuthorLee Ann Hilbrich is an author of three books, a Certified Daring Way™ Facilitator of Brené Brown's work, a Qi Gong and Yoga Teacher, and a SoulCollage® Facilitator. She's also certified in Equine-Facilitated Learning.
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